What you do when you’re bored and have an iPhone(: .. (Taken with Instagram)
the people you used to be friends with, pass you by like you’re completely invisible? Yeah. It bothers me too.
You know, I really don’t get it :/ . Why people hate me so much. I’m not perfect, I’m actually quite far from it. I know life has its ups and downs… But mine feels like its just all downhill from here on. I’ve lost just about all of the most important people to me in just this one year. I don’t understand what I’m doing. I’m pretty lost right now. Can’t find any happiness because Every time I find something to be happy or proud of… It just gets ruined. What am I doing so wrong that people have to get someone else to bully me around school..because I deleted them from Facebook?. What did I do to deserve losing a best friend because they liked me more than I liked them. What did I do to deserve being invisible to just about all of my peers.. Because I’m quiet. What did I do to deserve getting my heart repeatedly broken?. I know people say that you can’t love someone when you’re this young, and I know it might not all be true love or anything, but I believe it’s somewhat possible :/ . I believe at love at first sight. So what did I do to deserve being treated so badly that I sometimes just want to kill myself. It’s not like I’ll ever follow through with it, and I know I would never do that for attention.. But I really can’t seem to find anything good about my life, especially this year, and this moment. This is like the moment where I am just fed up with everything and everyone and I just need to get away. Get away from all the pain and let everything I’ve been holding in for so long. Let all of the sadness, anger, and thoughts I need to share out of my system. I know no one is going to read this, so why do I bother posting this. Posting my life on the Internet??. Because no one cares and it just feels good to let something out. I just feel like nothing right now. I feel kind of numb?… It’s the feeling where you just can’t talk and all I want to do is listen to music and stare into space.. Wondering how my life ended up this way. Never did anything to hurt someone, intentionally that is. Never did anything to anyone actually.. I’m so confused :/ sitting here and actually feeling some pity for myself. How pathetic. Well now just about everything has been said and it is now 3:03am, goodmorning/goodnight people of tumblr hope your lives are a bit better than mine is.
Why is it whenever I’m hanging out with people who are in their own little “group” when one person leaves, they talk mess about them like they were never friends? Why don’t they just tell them to their faces instead of being fake. It makes me wonder what happens when I leave from hanging out with people. Do they talk about me too?.
HOWD TUMBLR KNOW MY NAME
^You’re none of those things.
I’ve been called all of this.
By my own mother
Im called a whore eveeryday because Im “sexual” I cant help that I was sexually abused..
worthless, useless, slut. sounds like me yup
text him first ladies. if he lets you go, than he’s the one missing out